chick

DING DONG BELL

2005-07-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

all i can say is:
I HAVE MOVEDDD.
and if you do not know by now you are

STUPID.

2005-05-18T15:52:00.000+08:00

You Are 50% Normal
(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

got me laughing and laughing.

2005-05-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahaha..
guess wad happened yesterday?
i was kind of psychic
cos i was doing LA then was thinking of dii dear
cos like.. expected her to be doing it now too and stuff..
and was thinking how she might msg me and TA-DA!!!
she did!!! hahahahaha

and thennnn.
was bathing and thinking about the combined CT session we had yesterday
how moo's grp did that stoopid HOW TO BLOW UP THE SONY BUILDING thing
and then when i came out and checked my phone
i saw i got an sms from himm!!
hahahahaha.
just call me PSYCHIC.
oh moo btw thanx for the msg..
it was quite sweet.
: )

but sorry miah i wasn't thinking about u when u msged me..
a bit too soon to miss u la huhh.
hahaha.
don't worry u're still my eye candy.
;)

dii's cramming her pamphlet now.
too bad i've finished mine.
done over the weekend cos i thought deadline was mon.
i did on my vans.
cool pamphlet
u guys should check it out.

watched the match yesterday.
thrashed their asses 6-1
but credit to them for scoring
they apparently just set up the team last year..
i think desmond is pro personified.
he came on as a sub and within a min created one
and a min later SCORED one.
wahh. proness.
and actually she's not ugly la.
quite.. ok la huh.

oh well. did some stoopid thing for earthwatch today.
seriously hope ppl do NOT get the idea that i am from earthwatch.
no offence but..
gosshhhh.
that would suck soooo much.
anyway it was dumb.
and the person screwed it up.
LOU-SHEE.

bought the writer's circle book.
nadia was like... BUY! BUY! BUY!
haha..
sure there's lots of good stuff inside.

ok i shall be gone now.
i can't think of what to say anymore.

2005-05-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

You may look at me and think that I'm
Just a young girl
But I'm not just a young girl.
Baby this is what I'm lookin' for

waiting to feel hungry now..then i can have lunch
had physics thermiee presentation today.
was so friiiiggin pisssssed with yinxun
cos he absolutely refUSED to look at the script
and in the end he just kept on rattling off some stupid nonsense
that he cooked up himself
and that took up a lot of time
and it was sooo irritating and shittifying
like..stopppp!!!
but he carried on and on and on.
and it's not the first time.

gonna have first philo elective todae..
hmm.hope it will not be brain damaging
my brain's already been quite damaged
surprise LA test..
chemistry covalence bonding..
PMS.
aaaaaaahhhhhh.
later still got training...sian
i think todae got lots of ball work
yesterday we did 3.2
then we went to watch the match against SR.
won 2-0
then following vera's instruction
i found out who brendan is.
and he's ***y.
totally.
according to vera his gf is too.
hahahahahaha.

ok.. that was mean.
nahh.. not really.

i think karthik is a flirt.
and has a bad memory.

and thanks to nadia's dad i have been to school early these past few daes..
and thanks to him i sometimes get a lift home!
ah. the joys of having someone living near u

tan kheng hua came yesterday for our LA seminar.
she's reeli cute and funny
and jared asked some very intelligent questions.
impressed.
the artist in singapore.
needs funding.
support.
because one needs real passion
inspired?
i dunno.
perhaps.
she said it's easy to get on the scene
maybe one day i shall see.

hmm.. do you miss me too?

2005-05-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

now in class
listening to daryl's grade 8 pieces
they're ok la.
but an over dose can be deadly.
sighh.

was pms-ey today
still am actually..
i actually rubbed off the pineapple- veeoneone family caricature of everyone in the class
painstakingly drew and some asshole vandalised
sooo.. i did what i said i'd do.
feels good man.

and...
stoopid childish guys in my class
flicking the damn cards
...
shall not say what i think here
..

everyone's having electives now..
except philo students..
who have it on fri cos the teachers have some course.

arrgghhhh.
eat into my fridae.
the day when classes end at 1240.
sighh

got training later.
MUST go.
if not she fong will screw me.
totally.
because she caught me the other time
the first ever time i ponned training.
cos audrey pangsehed me.
sighh
an unsuccesful attempt.

so now.. i'm kinda afraid to see her cos she's SCARY
scary.
like.. today she was like REGARDLESS arh??
yaya..

and think she most prob was suaning me in her sms..
she's scary. scary scary

hope i don't die in trng later.
had napfa todae.
sadness.
i deproved by a min.
juts thank god didn't cramp.
sometimes my calfs will cramp at wrong time
sighhhhh.

missing some ppl now...
but i guess it was inevitable.
what was i thinking?
should have treasured the time more maybe.
but what's the use of regretting?
and what's the use of missing someone?
it's just a stupid human emotion we have to feel.
stupid stupid stupid.
actually, i don't think i'm supposed to feel like this.
quite impossible la..
it's not as if..
we exist in a vacuum.
i wish we did.
but that is selfish.
and that is running away.
again.

i'm an escapist.
and that's bad.
because you don't know whether you've dealt with your problems already.
you think you have
you think you're strong
but actually you're not.
you're just lying to yourself.
and in the end you'll be just living a lie.

i guess i am an idealist.
it's not being optimistic or whatever.
it's just running away from life's problems
putting them in a jar under your bed.
then they resurface
and you find youreslf..
hmm..
do you ever find yourself?

went for altar call in church on sat..
inner healing.
it will supposedly carry on for a couple more weeks
at first i didn't wanna go up..
but just felt God prompting me
saying this is the time. this is the time.
i guess i was trying to run away then too.

well..prayer was... ok..
the hugging was nice! : )
but there are some issues about sharing with adults in the church.
my grandparents and parents were quite "well-known" in church..
like..grandparents were pastors and all.
but that doesn't make me or my family very holy or whatever.
i know we are supposed to be holy..
cos we are made in the image of christ.
but i struggle to do QT every night, i forget to pray
sigh.
problems suck.
who wants to have problems?

just hope it'll be better.

in this world that makes no sense.
everything is falling apart.

2005-05-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

woots.

THE QUEST FOR PATRICK
let me tell you a story.
yesterday.. i suddenly remembered my dear darling Patrick PEZ
and i decided to fill it up with the refills from my Shrek.
was inspired by roo see?
so this was about 11+
and i searched till almost 12 when my mum asked me to go bathe
so saddd..
i couldn't find it.
i searched EVERYWHERE la.
and before that was doing some hw on the com
and this kelly clarkson song- i hate myself for losing u
was playing..and was just thinking that it's not badd.
and voila.
i lost my dearest pat.
ok..i definitely hope it's around my room somewhere.
i'll go search again when i get home..
it was a present from dawwnie baby
and though it wasn't for any special occasion,
i do treasure the little things she gives me now and then
i was like praying and stuff. askingGod to help me find pat
i said it means alot to me
i noe it's my fault la
i should have kept it in a place where i would REMEMBER.
sorry pat
sorry dawn
i feel rotten..
almost couldn't sleep
i was searching for pat and i didn't even feel tired..
sighh.

on to other stuff..
i met my mum for lunch on sun
which is also my dad's bdae.
but i had dinner with him on sat.
we went to Hilton's checkers.
Jap buffet.
wooooooooooohhhhhhhh
gooooooooood stuff mann.
tempura.. chicken..sashimi..octopus balls..
even the dessert was really unique.
black sesame cake and green tea cheesecake
and there was this chocolate cone with red bean paste inside
i usually don't like red bean but this was good stuff..
BEST jap food in town.
it's 48 per head but the food rocked..
on sun had good food again
with mum this time..
at Paramount Hotel
my favourite place for dimsum
: )
yummyumm...
had been craving for it for some time already..
i loooovvveee the banana and shrimp roll!
hmm.. i'm talking alot abotu food eh?

and yesterday ms low asked us to get as many things containg protein as possible in 10 mins
was a treasure hunt
and my group WONNNN!!!!
yay! haha
my group rawwkks.
we got yummy loacker in coffee flavour and cadbury fruit and nut
hah!

heyy.. switching phone with ganesh now..
he loves my phone
and i love his phone..
and he can't take out my SIM card..
pathetic.

blahh..
hmm..
imagineering is starting soon..
maybe i'll blog laterr..

: )

2005-05-04T09:05:00.000+08:00

ohhh..hohohooohooo
so farnee
in the com lab noww.
while the poor rest of u are doing some stoopid science quiz.
actually i don't mind taking it but hmm..can't rmb the time they asked us to sign up.
at least i've got marianne here..haha
do u know what happened just noww???
like...we were looking at bloggs then anne commented on a mean tag
then she was like.. wah lau ass man
and thennnn
the guy in front turned around
and had this shocked look on his face.
hahahahahahahah.
and we started laughing and laughing
and it was sooooo farnee.

ok.

Liverpool beat Chelsea.
HA.
i know diane's in bad mood todae..
but not meeee...
hahahaha..
she gave me THE FACE just now in LT.
i tell u.
just LET ME TELL YOUUU.
Liverpool will win the champions league.
they will TRASH ac. TRASH.
everton think they are so great but WHATEVER.
seriously... whateverrrrr.

got back report book yesterday..
frigggg.
sighhh
i could almost see it coming
nagnagangnangagnnagnnagnnag...
ok.
dingdongbell
this is exactly what i've been trying to tell you for the last how many years and you REFUUUUSE to listen to me.
you must wait for a report to come out and then you wll listen is it?

blahh.
ok.
both parents are going to see ms tey and mr koh.
sigh..
sigghhhh.

there were some not so good stuff but like..
haiya...
: ) - from anne
sighh

i must train hard.
and work hard..
do u noe that i write to myself in my fish n co planner?
finished a page yesterday..
self motivation ok

oh well..have to go see mr koh now
some philo swopping
doots
y are daryl n desmond in philo..
now anne says ganesh tooo..oh noo
no offence but..
they are going to talk and talk n talk
and argueeeeeeee

ok.

bye.
: )

2005-04-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

not again laa....
not again.
seriously... y am i always soooo suay???
i just want to DIE..
and who would have thought today i woke up quite happy.
then i had a sooper good day..
let's see.. i won pracxis..wahahahaahha..ok
and blah blah blahed
and thennnn...er....
ya.. blah blah blah
den i blah
and they blahh
and everyone blahhhed
and i was so sooper embarrased and a bit pissed
at blahh
and so now i am sooepr blah
LA.

WHINEEEEEEE.
whine whine whine..

howwww?
y always liddat la?
that time the wad
now this one..

my goddd.
seriously..
i want to die..

whine....
i feel like ******* ** ** ******** now
but ** *** ****** **
saddening...

awww.
yj sux la.
and moo: it's ok la.. not ur fault... just wrong person wrong time

whineeee
boohoohoooo

sighhh...
screwwed laa..
i think * ****** **** ****** ***
then i won't feel so sad.
and i will feel at least a bit happier
cos ** **** ***** ** **
ya....

anyway..
shit happens.

ya..
it just happened.

SHIT.

2005-04-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

arrrghhh!!! blogspot's eating up all my old posts! think i screwed the template that time i changed the skin. so sadd. but i think the old ones are crap, save for the poems la.
anyway stoopid sch closed the com labs and library and stoopid maths training is gg on in my class. heyyyy!!!! idiots.
stoopid me forgot to bring tie and wallet todae. i only realised the tie thing at the traffic light. too late. and then the wallet at the bus stop. i was like..shit cannot be..so suay??? then there was this st pats guy beside me and i wanted to ask him for moolah but then i thought better not. wad if i find it later? so in the bus i was searching like a dumb dumb and in the end i had to beg, ok.no get money from these 2 aunties who had been yakyakyak all the way and they didnt quite get me..
so she gave me a 1 dollar coin and i returned it and after all the fuss i paid 5cents less. but that's ok. after all the PAIN i went thru.
oh well... phone's coming todae so YAY!!!
6020..haha..go checkitout at nokia.com. it's pretty.
too bad my no. doesn't start with 8. it will in october. i hope.
what to sae what to sae?
oh ya.
rebecca and jeremiah are married! yay! sweetalilly.
mushy stuff.
not miah my slave but the botak jeremiah... who is so funny.
all brides are pretty.
missed church that dae but it was healing service. heard the speaker had gold dust on his face.. which apparently was from God. interesting eh?
got soccer at 5 heheheheh.. looking forward
and guess wad i got for chi test? 90. ha! it's been a while since 9 was in the tens place.
but i think i seriously messed up the ca1 la.
went for cross country and came back fagged (in wuyue slang)
and slept at 945. wad a pig.
my fault la..didnt study earlier.
the worst thing is me sandra and leqiao all wrote the same word
and its WRONG
like...sandra was beside me and leqiao opposite..
she will noe la!!!!!!!
damn... im screwwed.
anyway..cross country was fun!
NAB! NAB! NAB! haha winnie..i know u envy me. pearlyn too ya?
guys got third
girls sixth
but i just feel so proud of jocelyn.i was screaming my sore lungs out for her.
speaking of which.. my going to be sore throat sucks.
and i'm in the middle of bio report now...AHHHHH.
helppp me.
helllppppp me.

i have a bad habit
and that is to leave things to the last minute
and i give myself the excuse that i work better under pressure
what shit.
oh goodness.
all along i thought i was so justified.
now i know it's a farce.
haiyaaaaa............
what's that chen yu or wadeva in chinese
dont put off to tomorrow what u can do today.

sigh.

bioooooo...

can somebody just KILL me now?????????

2005-04-12T12:42:00.000+08:00

wahahahahahaha.
i know u guys have missed me.

sighhhhh....i haven't blogged for ages.
kind of forgotten what i wanted to say.

anyway music fest rocked.
and for all those who didn't go for some reason or the other- TOO BAD.
black 5 was soooper cool man..dineshhhh!!!
but anyway, i think moonwalking is quite easy. tried it at home.
bananas were not bad. dancing in the moonlight.
but Pi sucked la. like..... i mean...the jumping was so blardy NOT spontaneous
and that's totally NOT what punk rock or whatever they're trying to be is about.
it was SAD, totally, how they 1 2 3 JUMP. sadd.
how would you call it...posers
solos were gd tho. too bad joyce didn't win

i think eunice olsen's pretty talented. her jazz is good stuff.
and the judges were..ok la. i mean...rosalind pho's doog and willy lau is exactly in real life what he is on tv. ( read gay-looking )

the emcee- zhi hui? yah..somebody do something about her english man.
sorry do i sound like a bitch?
anw jonathan was cute. nice hat

but parousia totally rocked their set
inspite of the technical problems at first. amp prob i think
their sound's good. unique. no bass, no drums.
just an acoustic and keyboards
but the vocalist is hot. great vocals

anw..i almost got the 7260 but it was out of stock, but anw...the memory's not veri good
it just looks nice. flashy.
then i ordered the 6020, which is apparently so new that nobody knew what it was.
now my mum says i should get the..6670..or sth like that..
i forgot.
and i forgot my number as well.

a mosquito bit me last night. it totally had a field day man..
all over..
hand, arm, neck, face
worst of all....EYELID.
like..fcuk.
it was so bloody swollen when i woke up.
for vanity's sake i almost wanted to pon sch but had chi ca1 for ying yong wen todae
yest was zuo wen
thurs its the syllabus.
chinese attackk.

and i got a sooper pathetic 55.8 for maths.
shat. so pathetic.
cannot understand la..
mr. lam's nice, but it's just that he's not a veri good teacher for the mathematically uninclined.
like me.

work sux.
ip's reeli stressful man..
but everyone's in it together sooo..
but i can't help thinking back, like..
if i was in sec3 now i wouldn't have to do physics and history.. know what i mean?

anw... we found out our tokyo grp's yest.
my grp has only 4 ppl..
me cheryl mark and yang le
and we're under ms toh..
wah i think she purposely la
want to niao me only
shall niao her bac too
during mt fuji hike
ha.

good news: soccer girls are gg competitive
heard the comp's in july.
prob need to train everyday in june if they're serious
got some intro by tan on fridae
starts at five.
oh welll..
scary - tan

anw..shall end here. this is most prob the longest posts i've ever written.
it's nuts.
i talk so much.

till next time..
don't miss me..
: )

2005-03-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

planning April's Fool joke for teachers now..
WAHAHAHAHA
no more bread!
no more test tubes!
awwwww
okiedokiessssss
laugh laugh joke joke.
okaess.

oh well.
shouldn't have told us you're afraid of horror movies too!!!

evil grin
evil laugh

BEWARE.

AND.
whoever DARES to play a trick on ME
will DIEE.
in my hands..

oh.
watched Hotel Rwanda todae
me sandra n wooyeah shared some sooper farnee joke man..
too bad leqiao didn't catch that part...
SADNESS.
: )

aniwae...i got 4 tix!
all for di, anne n jove
n ME la

ok stupid shannon is chasing me 2 go home

buaizzz...
woohoo.

poor ELAINESSSS.

2005-03-31T18:01:00.000+08:00

I feel stupid
hope it won't last for long
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
I feel stupid
I've been changin'
think it's funny how now one knows
We don't talk about
the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around
So why am I standing here
thinking of the answers now
It seems to me you've come around

I need you now

I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken
though I've never spoken
I come undone
In this mad season

I feel stupid
Will that whole mad season knock me down
So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out

We need to be together now
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out
I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken
though I've never spoken
I come undone
in this mad season

Now I'm cryin'
Sorry that wasn't what you wanted
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I came undone
And I came undone
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out
I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken
though I've never spoken
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out
I'm a child and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken
though I've never spoken
I come undone
in this mad season

There's been a mad season
Been a mad season

2005-03-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hey I’m sorry for not updating for so long.
Was sick for a while with fever and all that but it’s ok now..
A lot of things have been happening and I guess I have been busy trying to cope with everything that was, still is coming at me.
But maybe there is hope afterall. And I’m sorry if I actually questioned Your existence.
I still don’t know why You chose me out of the 4+ million ppl in Singapore. But one day I’ll get thru it. It’s like the bridge I literally crossed on Sat. I hope that one day I will cross this bridge.

And the grass is always greener on the other side.

2005-03-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

Thinking about thinking of you

Summertime think it was june

Yeah think it was june

Laying back, head on the grass

Chewing gum having some laughs

Yeah having some laughs

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

Drinking back, drinking for two

Drinking with you

And drinking was new

Sleeping in the back of my car

We never went far

Didn't need to go far

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

I don't know where we are going now

Wake up cold coffee and juice

Remembering you

What happened to you?

I wonder if we'll meet again

Talk about life since then

Talk about why did it end

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

I don't know where we are going now

So take a look at me now

2005-03-21T17:17:00.000+08:00

idunno.doyounoe?

danger zone

2005-03-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

i realised i forgot to blog about sth yesterday..like how i was so PISSED off with jastine.

so poser wear skate shoes see walk until leg comeout
whatever la
you don't even skate
shut up
come on la as if u skate
aiyah shut up la sex bands boi
what
sex bands boi
poser la don't tell me u skate
ya u poser la wear sex bands as if u have sex
ya i'll f___ before u skate

i can't stand it when ppl purposely create trouble liddat.
seriously irritating esp. when i didn't do anything in the first place..

i don't feel like blogging about polictics forum..

shutter

2005-03-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

you reach out
you close my
shut.shut.
shutters.
and blind me
now blocked
outside
world
let me. now.
swirl.
and let us pray
darkness.
made you love
this light
reach out.
and pull
us.
shut.
shut.
shutter.
now.
spit on mud
and rub it all over your hands
reach out.
and close my
shut.
shut.
shutters.
open.
my eyes.

pure shores

2005-03-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

so SAD. liverpool lost. stevie G. Carling finals. a CUP.
but it's ok.

team america world police was soooper funny. and i fell asleep during imaginneering lecture...haiii..
mr.koh is.....................
...................................

haha..nickkk...

im moving im coming cant u hear wad i hear
its calling u my dear
out of reach

there is absolutely nothing veri tintillating to say.

achoo`

2005-02-22T15:20:00.000+08:00

i'm sickkk..booo
so IRONIC.
i have a cold and my nose is hot.
must be the weather.

u noe wad??
some ursa sc nominee TOOK THE INITIATIVE to lyk..set up the girls' soccer. YAY. but it's tentative. but still veri good. if the plan goes thru she's GUARANTEED in sc. smart ah?

parents gave me n mp3 for my bdae. quite nice. ok..be grateful...

im glad i didn't die during imagineering todae. i HATE it. so....indecsribable.

youareafunnydiddle-dum : )

****at times like these.it's obvious****

happie bdae clarahh!

Driftwood

2005-02-18T16:38:00.001+08:00

Everything is open
Nothing is set in stone
Rivers turn to Ocean
Oceans tide you home
Home is where your heart is
But your heart had to roam
Drifting over bridges
Never to return
Watching bridges burn

You're driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces, pieces, pieces
Just driftwood hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you, bind you, grind you

Nobody is an island
Everyone has to go
Pillars turn to butter
Butterflying low
Low is where your heart is
But your heart has to grow
Drifting under bridges
Never with the flow
And you really didn't think it would happen
But it really is the end of the line

So I'm sorry that you turned to driftwood
But you've been drifting for a long, long time
Everywhere there's trouble

Everywhere there's trouble
Nowhere's safe to go
Pushes turn to shovel's
Shovelling the snow
Frozen you have chosen
The path you wish to go
Drifting now forever
And forever more
Until you reach your shore

You're driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces, pieces, pieces
Just driftwood hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you, bind you, grind you

And you really didn't think it would happen
But it really is the end of the line
So I'm sorry that you turned to driftwood
But you've been drifting for a long, long time
You've been drifting for a long, long time
You've been drifting for a long, long
Drifting for a long, long time

2005-02-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

todae is the last dae i'm 14. and i've made a resolution.
no FKs. becuse it's BAD. and i have to be GOOD.
because we were made to be like Christ. and i realise my language is SOOO unedifying. so i shall TRY.

had a total bridge marathon todae. i'm quite sick of it actually. at least i didn't lose so much.
but it's a combi of luck and intellect.
i was unlucky. : )

researching for lang arts is pretty fun. this is a reminder to all my groupies. (haha..GROUPIES) to do ur researchhh.....

i'm dying for bio experiment. i haven't even started. but it's ok i hope. got anne to help me take the pcs so i'll just work on the report.

and thank YOU diane tan ying jie. i love the cake.
BETTY CROCKER is officialy one of my favourite ppl in the world.

it's my birthday tomorrow i can't believe it.
in fact. i don't really care.
i guess....it doesn't really matter anymore.
what's 15?
when i'm 16 hah..that's another story.

oh well..

Twenty seconds on the back time
I feel you on the run
Never lived too long to make right
I see you're doing fine
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer slide I can no longer run
And when I get that feeling I can no longer hide for it's no longer fun
Well, you can say what you want
But it won't change my mind
I'll feel the same about you
And you can tell me your reasons
But it won't change my feelings
I'll feel the same about you
What I am is what you want of me
Now that I'm not there
Took the tables away from you
It's turned that I don't care
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer slide I can no longer run
And when I get that feeling I can no longer hide for it's no longer fun
I've said goodnight try to sleep tight
Just dream of me
Go close your eyes cause I'll close mine
The sun will shine from time to time
When you dream of me

c o s w e ' r e a l r e a d y b e a u t i f u l

2005-02-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

yes.
and stop discriminating
stop discrimintaing
stop. discriminating

shhiiiit.

anw im sorry i was pmsing today during lit break
i dunno
maybe cos darren my socalled lucky star went for lit and i lost 4 bridge games in a row.
dang it.
i was such a bitch
sorrie everyone at the table.
and sorri di for showing u attitood and like being so diva-ey

i hate the _____

and i hate________
for _________.

and maybe__________.
ya.
maybe.

love is only a feeling

2005-02-14T18:03:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day to everibodie!!!
<3<3<3<3

thank u thank u
i love my presents
esp. my trucker
kudos to jove anne n di
anne...seriously....that was saddd case la
but it's ok
it's ok
i still love it
it's still nice
and thanx 2 jocelyn for the cadbury milk tray
shiokkk
thanx di for the bracelet n earrings
hey y is this becoming some thank u speech
and ericc!
so sweet. sooooooooooper sweet. THANK YOU.
thanx 2 wenshu nick n darren
i like the star.
but wenshu u suck la k
both my angel n mortal n u share liddat.
CHEAPO.
compare my presents for u with yours la.
SHAME on YOU. tsk tsk.
and mich and chuin.
love u guys
thanx chuinn 4 remembering me
and mich 4 the rose
i realise i sound super mushy
oh man. i shall stop this now

and talk about other things
like...nigel and audrey are so cute
and err...the friendship dance was a total flopp.
hmm...
i dunno.

todae was super tiring
but i think lee lao shi is soooper rich.
she gave us 2 dollar hong baos plus lollipops and all that.
she rox man.

todae is a happie day.
don' t you think so?

but it's kind of worn out right now.
cos of stupid chi project.
ok not stupid.
just.....chinese.

todae i drowned an ant in hydrochloric acid
serves it right for disturbing me.
and miss low/koh/toh whatever called me n diane DELINQUENTS
can i please repeat that?
DELINQUENTS
my. gosh.
and daniel u idiot.
how can u make me spill the hcl?????
acids are corrosive la hellooooo
if it's so windy go get a windsock
k that wasn't funny

and darren you saddo
have fun in grammar course.
wahhahahaha
i m soooo mean
but seriously
RELAX
you won't have to take o level english la.
ya noe?
what u feel is EXACTLY how i felt when i failed chinese diagnostic test k
HAH.
im pathetic man
i failed
helloooo?
and that stoopid bennett tong must always rub it in
welcome to the club
ya ya...
whateverrrrrrrr.

nadia gave me a present. yay! it's nice and i won't ever use it. and thanx 2 u for the card.
haha.
i think that's enough.
i shan't tell u the mushy stuff
what mushy stuff
whatever.

back to chinese..
sigh.sigh.sighhhh.

logarithm

2005-02-13T10:16:00.000+08:00

i have stopped
understanding.
i have stopepd.
taking in concepts
now they flicker past
like an empty breeze
or have i become so hollow
i do not hear the rustle
i need t oclose my eyes.
they shift up and down
and i am tired.
hold my head please.
it is getting heavy
and it is swirling inside
so steady it.
i am draining
and the clock hand moves too slow
i see you nod your head
i have given up shaking mine
i don't want to ask
any more questions

the whiteboard holds my reflection
i am no longer there.

milkshakee

2005-02-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

me n di's anthem that is.
pegasus vs. draco boi's finals todae. now i think
i'll go watch as soon as this is done.
we lost la.
wah lau..on penaltiess.
but 2nd is still good i guess.
i forgot the ursa house master's name.
but i wanna sae thank u to him cos he made me feel damn honoured.
noe when we were playing semis he told his players to watch out for no. 20
which was me la.
wahh.........
sooooooooooooo honoured.
i prefer playing with the bib.
got a sense of IDENTITY.
more seh lah i think
anywae.
i have to finish cos i need to watch the match.
ciaoo

sian

2005-01-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

wah lAU. i mean...stoopid blogger...i typed so damn much and they lost it. like FREAk it.
anw...i was saying that we went to mp library todae, and this director guy...Mr Gene Tan. and...okay. he is GAy? ok? i mean...it's like.... he walked in and we were like OMG. is he a woman or a man. ok? he's pretty and all..make up...the likes...i suspect a nose job.
anw... i shouldnt say that..he's a nice guy...farneee.we should suck up n act enthu..ha.
ohwell.
where were you? i noe la....i most probably know where you were. but..
i don't know anymore. will we ever be together as in..really..FOR REAL?
because sometimes you make me wonder.
and it's like...beside you i feel that i am content with the world. and beside you i have nothing to fear. but when you are not there....i seem to be so vulnerable...and i seem to crumble. do you know that?
but one day will we look back and think and regret that we were never ever...????

ello!

2005-01-19T05:03:00.000+08:00

new year lo! SORRY so long never blogg. sian larhh. hmmm...in school library now..so shiok can use MSN. haha. aniwae... I' m in 05V11. people very fun la.
got diane,anne n jove now...very the farnee.
sick now..got cough...1 week le. so poor thinggg man. cannot eat chicken chop! alwaes see people eat so xin ku.
dat tym went bac dhs realised that everyone's skirt was so LONG. like....WAH. ya...kind of miss the school la but now everything's new and stufff....looking forward to a great year.
i dunno.... just gonna take things reeeeeli easy.
i think that writer's circle people are SIBEI pro k? SIBEI pro. seriously..i m a bit scared of them when they read their PRO PRO poems n prose with such super expression esp. that v13 girl...ssssshhhh! ya... PENGX.
anw..gtg NOW.byee.

???

2004-11-27T07:03:00.000+08:00

Why is it that people like to judge us?
And why is it that people criticise?

Why is it that I am putting myself into your shoes
And asking myself these questions?

Why is it that he would love you
And simply pass me by?

And I know that we could be happier than what you are now
And I know that sometimes you could get a little insecure

Because my ghost still haunts you when your curtains are drawn
And your eyes create shadowy figures that tap on your window

And your fear drives you to query him
And make him pledge his allegiance to you

But I would love to creep further into your subconsciousness
And perhaps fiddle with the screws that hold your sanity intact

So why is it that I lose out in the end?
And it is always me who never gets it?

And I make myself out to be so much more desperate than I actually want to be
And the world seems to have no place for me

Why do I find myself sometimes wishing I was you?
And wanting to hurt you?

Because sometimes I watch you live your life
And I think that it is far from fair

That you get to be happier than me
Even though you are not a lot better than me

And if he wanted me to be you I could be
And I could even be better than you and me

But sometimes what I regret is what I try to be thankful for
And if you analyzed me you would think I was pathetic

And then you would tell him to avoid me
And he perhaps would

And I would stealth into your veins
And poison you with doubts

So paranoid he would feel afraid
And you would too

And guess what?
He would be left with what he had in the first place

And the only people happy
Would be the people who knew him before you came along

So don’t you think I am a blessing?
And don’t you think I am the victim?
Don’t you? Don’t you? Don’t you?

Sometimes

2004-11-26T07:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe that is what we need
And perhaps this is what you were made for
Well I would like to be honest
So I shall tell you now
That I do not know what you are trying to tell me
And when you sometimes speak
I know you are talking to me
But still you think you might be talking to the wall
And still sometimes the light of hope
Flickers in my heart
Even for so brief a moment
Sometimes you are an illusion
And you are nothing but an evil thought I want to forget
And the sleeping dogs are too drugged
To ever want to be aroused
From the peaceful slumber I set them in
Because I just let you be
And I left you alone
And I was the victim in all this
And I have nothing left
Sometimes I want to wonder
And then I regret wishing
For sometimes the pain still haunts me
And it lingers on and on
And on and maybe you are what he needs
And maybe this is what I was made for
And sometimes it is meaningless
For sometimes it is a crime
That distant shadows kill
And what I never had
Is now maybe yours to keep
But sometimes I am with him
And sometimes you are asleep.

happy

2004-11-26T06:44:00.000+08:00

We were drenched
But we were contented
And we were maybe perhaps quite happy

And you saw how I laughed at your jokes
And you heard yourself laughing at mine

And we were stuck under the shelter
But we were together
And that was all that mattered
And that was all that could have mattered

And the shelter leaked
And the raindrops slid down the gutter
And we caught some with our bare hands
And splashed them on each other

I was with you
And you were with me
And we were so happy
Weren’t we?

But the raindrops wet our pants
And we crouched under the concrete

And it reminded me of some things
And you saw that I was getting miserable
And you left too

But you were never there
And I was imagining you and me
And you had no idea

But we were once happy
And maybe now we are
But we could be happier
And we need to see each other
And that is most definitely

And you perhaps do not know
That I think of you as well
And perhaps I tell myself
That you think of me all the time

But we were once happy
And you were once drenched
But I was dry
And I was happy
And you were happy
But you were drenched
But you were happy
And you were with me
And that was all that mattered
And that was all that could have mattered

jamie

2004-11-18T10:28:00.000+08:00

your voice

fades into the

background.

the accent

non-faltering.

i sit behind you

and count your

brown wisps of hair.

the hint of stubble

on your cheek.

you take off your red-rimmed sunglasses

and turn back

to glance

with your pretty eyes.

and half turn again

to bid me

the inevitable goodbye.

flying with your wings

2004-11-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

my wet jeans
drenched at the ends
proof of our ride
up in the sky

snowcaps
of passion
numbing me.

Ice-cold pain.

free falling
d o w n.
into your arms.

you put me beside you
and brushed aganst my shoulder.
strapped me in with your security
Take me up with you.

Flying with your wings.

dead.

2004-11-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

your face speaks

but you are silent.

a thousand words.

but you are dead.

dead to me.

and dead to you.

I stick out my hand.

it goes through you.

persistence

2004-11-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

there's a fine line
between fantasy and delusion.
sanity and illusions
reality.
persistence.
it's been a while
since i cried a tear for you.
like i did.
just now.
who knows what came over me?
you walked out of my heart so easily.
but i casted your footprints
in unbreakable clay.
the flashing red lights
must have given me away.

my scientist

2004-10-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

Your breath like mist

my scientist

your theories

still unproven.

Free your mind

my glass, your wine

Pour your soul

into my cupped hands,

waiting and thirsty.

Gaze.

And bid me

Search your eyes

with mine.

From dawn to dusk

From dusk to dawn

My heart,

your feet have tread upon.

at anne's hs

2004-10-08T07:21:00.000+08:00

ga bongggggg
at anne's hs.
supposed to be mugging for geog
but noooooo.
sadness.
exams end nxt fridae.

dohhhh.
lu han lin suuuuuuuuuuuuuux
do u noe he gave me FAIR for conduct that fucking fat ball
i am going to push him down the freakin stairs.
asshole

@ e library

2004-09-30T06:50:00.000+08:00

y is the maths paper 2002 so .....???
i can't do a lot of sums. so terrible!
i mean...ya la. i haven't revised yet, but, i'm reeli rusty @ alot of chapters. suck la.
i'm leaving for tuition soon. so bloody irritating. i just don't feel like going.
Samuel is beside me. if u minus all the other empty chairs in between la. alot of ppl thinx he's shuai. but i dun see the shuai-ness man.
lu sux. the kuih dadar sux as well. i'm just not made out to be a house wife.
i bought Green Day- American Idiot. do u noe?...it's cool..ya.
ANYWAY i hv 2 go for tuition now
and damn...i HAVE TO PEEEEE!!!!!
bye.

2004-09-25T02:45:00.000+08:00

my literally bloody period is finally here. i fell sick with a full-of-mucus flu and screwed up the whole cycle. rite now i have a fucking backache and it sux.luckily no cramps yet.
i'm so friggin bored sitting "inside" y the hell did she hv to sprain her ankle? would u believe it she fell into a hole. a damn-ass fucking hole. oh. gawd. blindness man.
*rolls eyes*
loose ligaments. WOW.
do u noe that it's dusty and dirty inside?
OLIVE sux.

rainnn

2004-09-21T14:46:00.000+08:00

i remember. stormy weather. the way the sky looks when it's cold. but you were with me. content with walking . so unaware of the world.

mic has a poem to share...

it is raining
the sky is dark
waterside looks so ugly
but i don't feel like crying
because Li- Ern is beside me!!

(:

zhand shen gu li gu li
can u guess where we are????????

HomeEcons!

2004-09-15T09:46:00.000+08:00

now in comlab1 he lesson
haha i m sneaking this
im gonna die in art test
but i dunno how i will die
haha...
just tag my board for probs k??? =)

******

2004-09-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

I hate to be subjective. But I think of some people and get so annoyed. As I'm sitting at the dining table eating my genetically-enhanced apple, I wonder why some people can't grow up and stop lying to themselves and just BE who they are. Like someone we ALL know. If you know you can... you know? Be less childish. WHY DON"T YOU???? Just what exactly is your problem?

TOGETHER

2004-09-14T12:07:00.000+08:00

"When i love i. feel so much better. when i love i. feel so much better. TOGETHER. does it feel right at all?"

It used to feel so right. Perfect. Now it doesn't. Perhaps it's all in the mind. I don't. Know.

hackerrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-09-13T13:03:00.000+08:00

seriouslyy... someone has been to my msn account quite afew times. soooooooooo. if it 's u STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh..and um....stop it. oh well..... school tomorrow. oh man. i m so sian
thinking of renaming my blog to chimalogy.blogspot.com
whaddya think?????

mrs george sux

2004-09-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

i hate mrs george man..she SUX. how dare she take the teenage liddat?
i hate her
and she din giv it bac!

One Thing

2004-09-01T07:29:00.000+08:00

Restless tonight

Cause I wasted the light

Between both these times

I drew a really thin line

It's nothing I planned

And not that I can

But you should be mine

Across that line

If I traded it all

If I gave it all away for one thing

Just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about this one thing

Wouldn't that be something

I promise I might

Not walk on by

Maybe next time

But not this time

Even though I know

I don't want to know

Yeah I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

I dare u to move- Switchfoot

2004-09-01T07:25:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's watching you now
Everybody waits for you nowWhat happens next?
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
Maybe redemption has stories to tellmaybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

Happy Teacher's Day!

2004-09-01T06:59:00.000+08:00

at char's house now.. she's toking 2 her bf upstairs....haha
vera was here just now
we met in sch..had such a gd time meeting up wif frens and all
amazing all the frens... i still remember some of the names
and um... me thinx kong hwa produces a lot of shuai ges man...i'm soooo... ShOcKeD???
ya...
we ordered kfc. yes....AGAIN. but...not veri gd. cheh! cheat my feelings. haha

i want my chickchick koleh?
i want my chick ko pisang
pisang selantat?
wadeva....selantat?
ooooohhhhh
my chickchick...........

stupid love song

2004-08-31T10:45:00.000+08:00

My untimely dejavus
Always strike me at the
Most private of places
Where sleeping sensations come to life
Sensual nostalgia
Reverberating, echoing
like a stupid love song
Stuck in my head

marianne n me!!!

2004-08-28T06:10:00.000+08:00

todae in lit lesson i wrote a poem...becos i heard the aeroplanes fly past. and they were so damn loud man. i was....moved. so i wrote a poem:

I want your plane to fly.

I want you to fly high.

Then I want you to falter.

Falter.

And crash.

Onto the cold hard ground

and burn

in the fiery flames

That will lick up the life in you.

Then I showed it to Clara. And then during Maths I showed it to mic, and mic asked if she could show marianne. and marianne was pissed man......hahahahaha.FUNNY. marianne doesn't believe i write the poems myself. she scolded mic. "wahlau...u alwaes liddat one leh!" haha... and gave me that i-can't-stand-michelle-face. oh well. then she wrote me this poem:

I don't know why u like the person so much.

But I like your poems.

poems.

are u happy now?

I like your poems.

poems.

veri nice. i like. cute poem. just like marianne. hahahaaha. mic n marianne hate me becos they sae they can't write like me. Just becos of the N.S. compo.oh well.

i love them. and yes clara...that includes you. do u love me tooooo????

29/3

2004-08-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

Everyday it's the same old routine. Wake up, wash up, go to school, go through all that other tuition and lessons, come home, homework, sleep. There's hardly time to stol and think about my direction in life. I have tried asking myself that question, but my burnt out brain just refuses to function. Too complicated.
I'm tired. Apart from a few interesting occasions here and there, life is pretty boring. I;m sick of interclass politics, ego problems, bad attitudes, nagging, strictness. And I don't need people telling me what kind of results I should work for, because that's for me to decide. " You need a direction." Well, it's my life, anyway.
The theoretical-spiritual part of me says I should have a purpose for living. God created us because He has a plan for us. I know that. But sometimes, we all put on these fabricated masks, pretending and pretending until we are no longer who we used to be.
Do I really want to find out what my purpose is? Or is it easier to just live one day as it is, worrying about my problems as they come?
Life is not a bed of roses. Neither is it a puddle of mud. Sometimes I get tiredof living. Why can't the world just end? The world. The superficial, materialistic world. Home to superficial and materialistic people.
Just like you and me.

goodnite.

2004-08-27T17:06:00.000+08:00

at the end of the day
it's all because of you
so....goodnight.
you brought it upon yourself.

:(

2004-08-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

can u cleanse me Lord?
can u take my hurts away?
can u take away my brokeness?
take away my pain?
i want to be truly happy.
outside, as well as inside.
i want to stop pretending.
i want to love again.

hate not

2004-08-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

I shall not hate.
Because I choose to love.
and I shall
STOP. HATING.
because I
WANT
to love.

PEOPLE

2004-08-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

there is so much hate in me.
But it's not my fault.
Because when I was born.
It was never there.
PEOPLE put it there.
PEOPLE made me hate.
PEOPLE
have robbed me of my
right to love.
and I HATE those people.
I am sorry.
That I am a person too.

foreverneverever

2004-08-26T17:04:00.000+08:00

I want to be ignorant.

FOREVER.

and ever and ever and ever.

So I will

NEVER

ever ever ever ever

EVER

feel sad.

oooops

2004-08-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

wahlau....clara is dead man...
michelle!!!! ur blog's fault la!!!!

25/8

2004-08-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

How can I go to school tomorrow?
I'm going to look like shit.
I cried more. Because I am sadder.
I will never be a " good girl".
can never meet ur standards.
Let's go to sleep now.
although we won't sleep.
Let us go. And get away from it all.
Escape. Into the wonders of being ignorant.
WHAT'S WRONG. I want to be ignorant.
So that I can live properly.
Goodnight. I will pretend.
Tomorrow.

2004-08-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

on every silver lining,
there is a dark and stormy cloud.
I have used up my silver lining.
and now i am left
with
YOU.

UnFaiR

2004-08-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

UNFAIR.
UNFAIR.
UNFAIR.
go on and GLOAT.
and gloat and gloat and gloat.

I don't wish to know what.
But she just tells me
If I had a choice. yesterday would have been
my last day on earth.

[broken]

2004-08-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

I am

BROKEN.

But I never knew.

Because

I have always

PRETENDED.

Until I no longer know myself.

I know now.

anyway.

I am.

B R O K E N .

what victoria integrated programme.

2004-08-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

What the **** is her problem?
I know la. She can't believe
I got in.
I know la. She doesn't want me in.
I know la. I know la.
I can read between the lines.
WHY DO I WANT TO CARRY ON LIVING?
You don't know why I got in right?
You don't know why God let me get in.
RIGHT?
Well. GOD put me in ok?
Why don't you GO AND QUESTION GOD?
STOP questioning me.
Go and question God.
I know now.
God put me in there to
SHOW YOU.

When I got my PSLE results, u pretended I did well.
ans THEN.
I know u think I should have done better.
I know. I know. I know.
and then she lies.
" If u had done better, u would have no problems getting into RGS. Tell me honestly, did u do ur best?"

wednesdae morn

2004-08-25T16:17:00.000+08:00

same old speech.
shut up.
same old speech.
OH MY GAWD.

who knows man?
do i look like i know
EVERYTHING???

Let me tell u something.
I don't know why she thinx I wasn't disappointed.
of course I was disappointed.
The whole world knows that.
aniwae...she thinx I NEVER said it.* rolls eyes *
i AM SO....duh man.
Face it la. u're using mama as an excuse.
Who was the one who kept telling me that I should have done better.
RGS.RGS.RGS.RG my ass la.
I hate everything that has happened.
You only want me there cos it's ur old school. I know la. All ur fren's daughters in RGS rite? YAyayayayaya.
RGS. god. i hate RGS man.

i hate you.i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

2004-08-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

i don't care. Because I'm used to it.
I don't think u'll ever change.
So let it be. SO BE IT.
u don't have to trust me.
I do not NEED ur trust.
I do not need ur trust. I do not need ur trust.
I do not need ur trust.

So u are very happy now.
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa.
Let's all celebrate.
Because mummy is HAPPY.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

as if so many ppl can be like ME.
as if so many ppl are better than me.
the problem with her is.
SHE IS SO ENCLOSED IN HER tiny little world. so she does not know anything.
i did not go online with a chatting intention.
so what if my friends talk to me?
I don't get why people can do everything and I can't.

all she wants to do is catch me.
catch me.
so now she has " CAUGHT ME"
she is
SO
Bloody happy.
I hate her guts.and pretence.
She should just be
HONEST.
She's FREAKING scared.
But I don't know what she is so scared about.
She thinx I am some...
u know?
She takes me for granted.She takes me for granted. and she says I take her for granted.

I don't have freedom.
and it's the same BLOODY speech that I have heard 1000 times.
so don't bother telling me anymore.
because I already have it stored in my memory.
WHY should I care what my parents think anymore?
When they NEVER care what I think?
why did God bring me here to let me have these parents?
ok. i know.
God gives u some gd things. and some bad things. that's ok.
One day we'll all die and go to heaven.
When we are pieces of nothingness, let's see what really matters.

bloody obvious

2004-08-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

cover my eyes.
I don't want to see.
Bind my hands.
So I can't move.
Tie up my legs.
Then I wouldn't go anywhere.
I have been hurt.
Do you know?
No. You don't.
It's BLOODY OBVIOUS.

hello.

2004-08-18T06:39:00.000+08:00

so here i am... the dreaded interview is over.yesterdae it was over. and some vj girls were laughing at me, assholes. bet they were from dunman. not as bad as i expected but....i reaaalli dun noe about my chances. i think i was quite confident la...but i forgot some points i wanted to sae. oh well, never mind... i'll leave it in God's hands.
i think i'm different. i kept on asking clara yesterdae..." have i changed?" she said no. but well, that's all part of it. people don't realli noe . they can't tell. there's this whole pot of tears inside me now. triggered off by any sad little thing that happens. it sux. i am miserable every single dae. i hate myself sometimes. i feel freaking pathetic.
level camp is tmr. i hope its ok 4 me. i dunwan to soaklyk a ...u noe? inside the water. neither do i want there to be a " red sea" . so sick. oh well...... i just hope i can enjoy myself and quit worrying. u noe? i never used to be like that. i told u, i've changed.
pang kiat sux. he sux sux sux sux sux.asshole. bully annabel. and scolded me the f word. oh well i can sae it too. Fuck u la, Pang Kiat.

DEAR GOD

2004-08-15T09:01:00.000+08:00

dear God.
u knew.
u knew how much I wanted him
how far I thought we could go
how much I thought we could be
TELL ME WHY.
u let all this happen.
because I can't read YOU.
and every single day
I wonder WHY.
You didn't keep him
FOR ME.

Loved?

2004-08-15T08:50:00.000+08:00

Loved by God
Chosen by God
Enough for me.
I don't have
to be
Loved by you
Chosen by you

peekaboo!!!

2004-08-13T12:43:00.003+08:00

perched on a pedestal
armed with a telescope
i watched.
in full view
as your shooting star crashed
into the waves below.

me?

2004-08-13T12:43:00.001+08:00

I’m showing you a side of me
Many people have never seen.
You can cover your eyes
And act like nothing has happened
Or you can stare.
Shocked.
Because you’ve never seen me so
transparent before.

KFC ROX

2004-08-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

i have just finished stuffing myself with KFC. Mmmmmm..Great stuff, i tell u. i ate 4 pcs...of the...spicy and crispy chicken. inspired ny the commercial. haha. clever marketing.
mummy said it cost $21...the whole meal. and that i'm an expensive baby. ya...well...truee....heard on morning madness a child takes $1million to raise. daddy thinks i think branded goods are a necessity. oh well.
and when mummy saw the way i was GORGING myself, she said she was worried i'd become roly-poly. and i asked if i looked lyk the type who'd let myself become faaaaat. she said yes. and she looked serious.ya...when i'm 58 with 10 grandkids. mAYBe.
i'm not the skinniest person around but i get by.heh. i'm not...HUMONGOUS either. u noe...KFC is da bomb. i have rekindled my undying passion for KFC. i had a pineapple pie and mash potato and coleslaw ONTOP of chicken. dinner. but became supper cos mummy came bac at 10 plus. *roll eyes*
vegetarians lead a sad life.
seriously. mummy said they prob feel the same way about me but... WHATEVER.
whoever is a vegetarian hasn't tasted KFC chicken. i wish Pearlyn could c me lick every single bone clean and eat all that deepfried, unhealthy-but-i-don't-care-at-this-point-in-time, cornflour thingy on the chicken. YUMMY!
i love KFC.
it's gd, u noe, to indulge urself once in a while. i put on 2.5 kg in one meal. hopefully it'll be gone tmr
awwwww crap. i don't even feel like dieting. u noe wad? i don't feel guilty. not even a little bit.so...if i t doesn't come off...i'll just stuff my face with fibre...so i can SHIT it out.

snap

2004-08-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

with the loud music and disco lights

i hid behind the fired up crowd

with a borrowed camera.

snapping, snapping.

while u posed.

UNAWARE.

that i was taking pictures.

of YOU.

the call

2004-08-11T12:46:00.000+08:00

u called

so i told u

about it

and the first thing u asked

" was she pretty? "

...

yeah,ok...

i'm just being ...

STUPID?

sorry but,

i kinda imagined u to be...

more mature than

THAT.

???

2004-08-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

i asked u

about urself

all u could say

was

" I don't know."

I stared at u

with an expression that screamed

" BORING"

but u shrugged it off.

probably cos I didn't really matter

anyway.

me.

2004-08-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

I am the sort.

That could kill u.

Just absolutely KILL U

with my words.

and deal

FATAL BLOWS.

with my eyes.

and stab

and stab and stab.

and stab.

in a rage. of

deadly anger.

Raffles City

2004-08-10T04:00:00.000+08:00

i went up the escalator.
Quiet and alone.
Hiding behind my yellow sunnies.
looking around to see if
anyone
was looking atme.
I wasn't a pretty picture.
Not a very pleasant sight.
But I was self-concious.
Wondering.
What people were thinking.
As they passed me.
Maybe...
they thought.
I was too sad to be young.

Did you see?

2004-08-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

Did you see?
I saw .
I saw her.
Walking.
Following.
Behind. Him.

She looked small.
But content
Happy?

It was her.
I know it was.
I bet.
It was.

The very same girl.
Wearing the same shoes.
Shoes I wished I were in.

They looked comfortable together
Like it had been ages.
But was it stress I sensed?
He seemed to want to hurry away.

He escaped too quickly.
I lost them in the dwindling crowd.
Trying not to look.
But I couldn't help myself.

I don't know where they went.
Out, I guess.

Spending time tracing the outlines
of each other's faces

See here, I trace
The outlines of my tears

.....

2004-08-07T06:10:00.000+08:00

u've changed the way u look at me

whenever i look

at you

u seem to be more confident

u seem to not seem

to care.

There's an aura all around you

It binds me to your light

I'd gladly sacrifice.

For you.

I'm afraid it's true.

Why is there a bounce in your step?

I'm jealous

I'm envious

I know

I wish I never fell for you

I wish i never fell

for you.

You carry on

So oblivious

Cause no one ever told you

and I don't think I'm going to.

The life you live is so complete.

You're so content.

Nondescript

I love you

I think I'll never know if you ever loved me too.

Love is

2004-08-07T05:55:00.000+08:00

the next time i see you i won't smile

i know i still love you but it'll take a while

i need to sit down and think and get

my emotions in place

i need to get away

stop thinking of your face.

if only we both were outgoing enough

i know we are, they say we are

but i still find it tough

you can't say hi

i can't say bye

it's as simple as that

But Love is complicated

Love is sweet

In Love, give back what you receive.

For now i'll pretend

you're less than a friend.

And. Until i finally am able to

think. straight.

Guess i'll just have to wait.

I wish i could laugh out loud

at U, your new, lame, funny

hair style

I wish i could give you that cd u want

and tell you "Happy Birthday"

i wish we already found each other

i wish i have already found my answer.

But nevermind anymore

I'll be here, on my own

Heart - Broken.

Love is never a fairytale.

Love is never blind.

Love is more than a secret.

Love is a simple, complicated thing.

todaeeeeee

2004-08-07T05:46:00.000+08:00

my maid left yesterdae...dunno man...dun feel....sad. the house is emptier la. but mummy saes must help her wif choressss.WAH LAU!!!!!!!!!!! i hate it man. iron my own clothes...wipe own bag.
now....the food is lyk.....so...
there's nothing to eat animoreeeeee.
the hard realisation whacked me in the face todae. guess wad i had for breakfast? a pathetic banana nut cookie that tasted like fruit cake. BLEH>
my maid SUCKED anw...so lousy..alwaes lying. turns out she was pawning her jewellery everywhere.ya noe her hp bill is lyk...$300 bux
oh well..... did face painting in sch todae. i was the R in singapore.
so lameeee. think got more pimples....arggghhhh!!!!
oh!!!!! joanna came bac todae....wooh!
choir todae...suck la..y todae?

BAAAA.

2004-08-06T08:11:00.000+08:00

FINALLY. HCL and Bio tests are OVERRR. enuff of mugging.MAH-GGING. my special brand of mugging. one-night mugging. just like a one night stand. qiong for the nite...den the next dae...POOF! it's all gone. hopefully AFTER the tests. aiya...
i think i'll do reallll badly.i almost fell asleep during bio test. my head..kind of swirled around.
oh well....i'm TIRED of blogging.
bye. =)

B0000000000

2004-08-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

helloooooooooooooooooo!! (: muahahahahahas. i am michelle. whee!! i'm e only one who n0es the password!! hahahahahas. ern is n0w bathing. n saying 'why you always liddat.' to her mother. hahas. yupps. bye!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

i thought about it.

2004-08-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

I thought about it.
I pondered over it.
I wondered about it.
I went to sleep
and dreamt about it.

I searched and searched
and searched
With much hope
Hoping to find
The answers to my endless questions
So I could end
this colourless mime.

Each time I took off my mask.
Pain
Seared through this heart of mine.

At first you showed interest
Then you brushed it off.
Was it my fault?
Maybe you think you know
But if you don't think
I know you'll never know.

Was it my eyes
That told yours lies?
Was it the way
I faded into oblivion
When you stared

Please look deeper
Unravel this puzzle
that has crept into you.

Ignore the doubts that taunt you.
For my broken heart could never lie.

what has happened to me?

2004-08-02T15:48:00.000+08:00

What has happened to me?
I seem to have become more mature.
overnight.
It's like finding back the old me.
the one that was lost.
Subconciously.
Along the lines of
growing up.

chick

DING DONG BELL

danger zone

shutter

pure shores

achoo`

Driftwood

c o s w e ' r e a l r e a d y b e a u t i f u l

love is only a feeling

logarithm

milkshakee

sian

ello!

???

Sometimes

happy

jamie

flying with your wings

dead.

persistence

my scientist

at anne's hs

@ e library

rainnn

HomeEcons!

******

TOGETHER

hackerrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mrs george sux

One Thing

I dare u to move- Switchfoot

Happy Teacher's Day!

stupid love song

marianne n me!!!

29/3

goodnite.

:(

hate not

PEOPLE

foreverneverever

oooops

25/8

UnFaiR

[broken]

what victoria integrated programme.

wednesdae morn

i hate you.i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

bloody obvious

hello.

DEAR GOD

Loved?

peekaboo!!!

me?

KFC ROX

*snap*

the call

???

me.

Raffles City

Did you see?

.....

Love is

todaeeeeee

BAAAA.

B0000000000

i thought about it.

what has happened to me?

snap