smoking out the car window

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

so here i am... the dreaded interview is over.yesterdae it was over. and some vj girls were laughing at me, assholes. bet they were from dunman. not as bad as i expected but....i reaaalli dun noe about my chances. i think i was quite confident la...but i forgot some points i wanted to sae. oh well, never mind... i'll leave it in God's hands.
i think i'm different. i kept on asking clara yesterdae..." have i changed?" she said no. but well, that's all part of it. people don't realli noe . they can't tell. there's this whole pot of tears inside me now. triggered off by any sad little thing that happens. it sux. i am miserable every single dae. i hate myself sometimes. i feel freaking pathetic.
level camp is tmr. i hope its ok 4 me. i dunwan to soaklyk a ...u noe? inside the water. neither do i want there to be a " red sea" . so sick. oh well...... i just hope i can enjoy myself and quit worrying. u noe? i never used to be like that. i told u, i've changed.
pang kiat sux. he sux sux sux sux sux.asshole. bully annabel. and scolded me the f word. oh well i can sae it too. Fuck u la, Pang Kiat.

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